Demian was winning the match. Gatsby was not achieving his objectives. On the personal level he had succeeded in making real a series of qualities that made him powerful and feared by his rival, but the latter was enclosing him in such a way that he could not find room to apply these qualities. Demian was filling Gatsby's life with frustration, he was choking him.

Finally he got married. I had started to doubt that this would ever happen and now I only wished that his life would be filled with tranquility.

"Jimmy was at the wedding," he told me. "Next to the priest."

I did not expect any less of him.

FINANCING

Several months passed by. In my mind the idea of starting a business never left me. I did not tell my friend anything. I would find the money, as I always had done until then, and Gatsby would design and direct the business. It would be more difficult or less difficult but it would succeed in the end. I had observed many businesses and it was only a matter of perseverance. Over time Gatsby would return the money I had invested and would venture on alone, creating his own entrepreneurial empire. That's how I saw the process evolving.

But how was I going to acquire such a large sum of money? Where would I get it from? There was one subject that went around in my head continuously. In some way I related economic life with life after death.

One thing that everybody agrees is that decisions should be taken when the matter in question is seen with clarity. That is advisable. When a person has died, all of his decisions have been taken and form part of the past. Among them is the last will and testament, where the deceased has disposed of what remains, of what, as products of his life, he cannot take with him to the spiritual world. In fact the testament is a formality that attempts to ensure that the will that it reflects is that of the deceased, and, in that sense, that formality seemed to me to be like a hurdle that must be overcome in the future, when the man might have access to more resources. Because I used to ask myself: "Wouldn't it be more logical that the last will and testament were written after the person had died and, as result, could see larger worlds that would provide the clarity that would be so welcome for a decision of that nature?" That was a point of view that only took into account the free will of the deceased and obviated everything else. Transferring that general question to my particular situation, that question turned into a more concrete one: "Who would be the beneficiary of my mother's last will and testament, and that of others like her, who saw from the spiritual world the importance of the needs of this Cause?"

As an inheritance my mother had left a piece of property that was deteriorating through lack of use, and some shares in a family company. I considered the property to be my motherīs, since the company had been the result of my father's work and had only become hers for tax reasons. After her death it passed into my father's hands and the company shares to the children.

Who would have inherited that property if my mother had the opportunity to write her last will and testament after her death? I was never able to answer that question by myself and I reached the conclusion that currently, even if the wishes of the deceased were known, only in a few cases and in a somewhat forced and indirect way, could one implement their wishes. On the other hand I could not find a way to raise the money to finance our business.

GATSBY AND WORK

Gatsby was an indomitable spirit and that is not something people usually like. Deep down we are afraid of it. We don't altogether like someone who is not in any way controllable, especially when that person is in some way linked to us. Understanding that type of person is directly linked to distance in time and space. With greater distance, greater comprehension.